Broken

This is the time when I need that shoulder to cry on.
That hug that makes my day bright.
When I want to burst into tears but hold them back.
I will smile I will laugh but I will be dieing inside.
Two boys had my heart and two boys broke it.
Both boys said they would always be there but they are gone.
I now stand alone in this dark place.
Broken and used wishing someone would be there.

I push him further away and more i do the more my walls go up.
He will never be that close to me again.
He'll never know my true feelings.
My walls are building up.
Imprisoning my darkest secrets my feelings my fears.
The walls are as strong as steel but can shatter with the slightest touch.
I won't shed anymore tears for they are gone.
Smiling comes hard when you are alone

I miss him.
I see him down the hall, smiling with his friends and laughing.
How does he forget so quickly?
I feel him glance over but i turn away.
I can't look at him I can't see those sad eyes that once were happy.
The heart I broke and now want back.
I can't talk to him in person in fear of slipping up.
I wonder if he truely hates me that what we had is gone.
It isn't gone for me.
I want him all the more.
I miss him so much that it hurts but at last again I am alone.
I won't shed anymore tears for they are gone.
  
I shedded tears at the slightest memory of him.
I push my feeling deeper and deeper inside.
Don't show true feeling yet i'm failing.
He knows how I feell yet he refuses me.
He won't have me back.
Yet he won't say he hates me.
I feel like he does that he hates me.
I am alone.

I know I borke his heart.
I don't deserve to be loved.
I deserve to be alone.

I couldn't stand losing him and it has takin its toll on me.
Now all i want is to have his arms around me.
See that smile I loved so much.
To know that I wasn't something dark.
To know that I was his light.
I wish he would hold me close.
But I am alone.

He hold me close in his arms.
He hugs me tightly.
He kisses me softly.
He smiles and looks into my eyes.
I pull him closer and the dream ends.
I will never have him again.
I am alone.
Broken and alone.

I shedded tears at the slightest memory of him.
I push my feeling deeper and deeper inside.
Don't show true feeling yet i'm failing.
He knows how I feell yet he refuses me.
He won't have me back.
Yet he won't say he hates me.
I feel like he does that he hates me.
I am alone.

I know I borke his heart.
I don't deserve to be loved.
I deserve to be alone.

I couldn't stand losing him and it has takin its toll on me.
Now all i want is to have his arms around me.
See that smile I loved so much.
To know that I wasn't something dark.
To know that I was his light.
I wish he would hold me close.
But I am alone.

He hold me close in his arms.
He hugs me tightly.
He kisses me softly.
He smiles and looks into my eyes.
I pull him closer and the dream ends.
I will never have him again.
I am alone.
Broken and alone.